Journey With Jen

Frustrated. That's where I find myself.  I am an opinionated person.  I'll admit that.  However, I usually talk about it with a few people and keep it to myself around others.  I am not good at confronting my source of frustration.  I bury it until I get to this point and I want to explode.  Yes, I do know it's not the healthiest way of dealing with things.  :D Also know that it's not the attitude that I should have.  We are supposed to be like God.  God puts up with a lot from us... from me.  Yet, He loves me through it all.  He doesn't throw up His hands with me and walk away.  "Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant  or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;     it does not rejoice at wrongdoing,  but  rejoices with the truth.     Love bears all things, believes  all things, hopes all things,  ...

It's been a while since I've posted.   I was in a bit of a funk for a while.  Felt like I was on the hamster wheel not going anywhere.  It was like I was getting further and further behind and there wasn't anything I could do about it.  For example, two $400 electric bills in August and September.  Our house is not some mansion over the hilltop.  It's a little over 2000 square feet.  And our thermostat was set at 76 in summer.  Electric company wouldn't even send some one out to look and check the meter.  Nothing, no help what's so ever.  Then, we finally get those paid off and we had another $500 unexpected thing pop up.  Plus, making trips for Joey's band trip every month.  Faith has a trip to Disney in January that I was supposed to chaperon.  Life can wear ya down, you know?  Where else could I go but to God?  He knows how stretched we are.  He knows our circumstances before I ask.  So, I gave ...